I’m not a victim

 I’m not pretending like I’m a victim because I’m not. I voluntarily be with you for your good, bad, and maybe ugly.  But you  late the one in control for the most part.  If you’re annoyed at me, I will be in trouble. If I’m annoyed at you and tell you, I will be in trouble. Therefore silence might work, but not always. I’m not a victim, but do you see that you’re the family man?

I do owe you a big thanks today.  I said I was going to be up early but I slept through the rain until 10:15am.  You didn’t yell at me, I know I was in the wrong, and you might be annoyed inside, but that was a gift you have given me today that no obvious negative reaction was shown in the morning. 

You’re right, I shouldn’t pray for you to be better for me, that is very selfish of me, no excuse to that.  I have been praying for wisdom so I know how to be around you so you don’t feel annoyed or mad at me.  But praying is not enough, I have to take one step ahead and think a little further.  For example, we got back to hotel, instead of asking the Airbnb host or looking into checking in for the flight or for ride for the taxi or picking up Trang’s phone call, I should know that you’re going to shower, so that means I should blow first so you can shower, then I can figure the flight and other things out later.  Take one step ahead, ignore everything else, then get back to everything else.  

I’m stuck in traffic

 

I heard the driver from my right talking to the guy on my left that someone was trying to jump off the bridge, that’s why the road has been blocked for the past hour. I’ve been waiting since 11:30p and now it’s 12:17am, but no progress. Some cars turned off the engine.  

Hope your day is good. I love you. 

Silence is golden

 I voiced my annoyance with you on your thing about Kaiser, and about the food thing in Italy, it didn’t turn out pretty, it was a discussion that shouldn’t even happen had I just let go of my irritation. Yesterday at Tham’s there was something I was debating if I should bring up to you about my annoyance but I chose to be quiet about and it let it go, and that was smart, because nothing can come from something that is unsaid.

I will learn to get over my own annoyance with you because I can’t determine which of my annoyance is valid and which isn’t, so I will learn to just let it go like I did yesterday during the time at Tham’s, and that was the best decision I’ve made about it, it could have turned out to be like the discussion we had today during the ride home after seeing Jeannette.  I saved myself yesterday for staying silent. It may be a valid annoyance but I shouldn’t take the chance.

I hope by the time I turn 40, I will learn more on how we can adapt to each other. It’s all about communication. I want to master it by 40 so we don’t get into discussions like we had in the car today and the previous times.

It’s ok more or less

 I’m sure it’s ok to love someone more or less on a daily basis. That’s for sure my case with you.

And me not talking about money with you or how you spend, I’m over it now because I know I’m able to pay off my house in 2026, have all my trips with you and my family, may have 20 bars of gold by 2026, build up my stocks with Tony, build up my 401k, plus maintain a $35k in cash as emergency fund, I’m ok with however you spend your money because I feel secure should something happen to us.  I’m sorry I was such a biotch before when it comes to money with you. But now I see my ability to maintain my portfolio without anyone’s help and regardless of how differently each of us live our lives

 

“I’m sorry” is it not ok?

 I disagree with Felicia’s post about saying “I’m sorry”.  I take this at work, I say I’m sorry to my boss for misplacing this, forgetting that, etc, the response I have is “It’s ok, you learn as you make mistake.” To the Mckesson team, I told them “I’m so sorry I messed up, can I refill that prescription “? Response, “It’s ok Uyen, I know you have a lot on your plate”. When my technician Pang forgot to add the amount of pill, I told her, she said “I’m so sorry Uyen, let me do that again”, and I’d say “No worries, I know you work super fast and have a lot, so just correct that one for me”.

Maybe it’s just Mckesson Costco that makes me feel this way  about acknowledging that we’re sorry, they’re strict but at the same time more generous, especially my boss.  We’re forgiven and given 2nd, 3rd, chances, unless we absolutely neglect our responsibilities.  Mckesson is one of reasons I love my job.

Innocence

 

Looking at this face (of Evelyn), I just want t to love her and protect her. She shares some of your genes too. 

A dream that helps me judge less

 I just woke up from a dream.  Last night was the biggest fight and the worst I went through with anybody in my life.  In my dream, I was cheating on you with this guy, I told you in the dream I cheated on you too.  I know it is wrong to cheat on your partner, but I understand why people cheat sometimes. I don’t plan to ever cheat on you, but if you cheat on me, I understand.  It’s wrong, but it’s probably the comfort people need at that moment, which was the case in my dream. I used to judge people who cheat on their partner, but I no longer judge people about it. 

I love the Mckesson staff

I don’t have life lessons to post. I just feel the technicians and clerks at McKesson should get the highest pay possible.  While I’m writing this post, Pang, David, Kathy, Kenny, Jodie, Salish, Brent, Mitch are working so hard.  Except for one newbie who is not accurate with her job here, everyone else here are like angels from the sky. Can’t forget Claire, Cecelia, So, Thomas, Bobby, Brandon, Chelsea (my crush), Jasmine, Nghia, Nhia, Liem, Joyce, Nu, Jimmy…The 8 hours being here everyday, I do count on these faces to make my work life more enjoyable. 

I hope Peter and Lorraine and Felicia can do the same for your 8 hour at work.